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Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Hear me out

Hi ear.

I really hate today. I have no idea what went wrong but everything seemed so not in place. I have an exam coming up in less than 2 weeks and I know I need to work my ass off but I really didn't feel good all day. I don't really know how to explain this mess but I think it'a stress talking. I just need a big hug and someone to tell me it's all going to be okay.

God, I want better days tomorrow onwards. I need to get my head in the game and keep fighting on!

Monday, October 28, 2013

Vulnerable

One of those nights, I wish we didn't have to be apart. One of those nights, I wish I could just have you beside me. One of those nights I wish I could drive to college early in the morning and I'd see you there. One of those nights, I feel so sentimental, so weak. One of those nights, I miss you more than ever.

Distance is easy, said no one ever.
Holding on.

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Word Vomit

Right here, right now.

I can really feel the whole force pressing against me. Ironically, I still have time to write this. (Yeah even I can't understand sometimes) Thankfully, I know I'm not alone. It doesn't matter how much it takes or how taxing it is. Because these last and final 2 months is going to bring another journey to an end. I want to end this fast. I want to stop going to college. I want free time, free from stress; go to the gym, enroll for language classes, get a part time job and (hopefully) travel.

It's just like during SPM I kept making plans in my head, for my post exams break. This is slightly different though because I know I can't screw anything up. I know I must excel this to get into a good university and hopefully, someone to sponsor me. Excuse me for my big dreams.

Things are really so much tougher here. Mainly because we have no right guidance and it makes me regret so much for choosing this college. It really annoys me when I think bout how much I pay and how I could have gotten education free with better teachers & similar recognition if I went to Form6. But I've stepped into it and I can't escape.

I occassionally have good food, fun company to talk with (in college especially), short breaks, fatty snacks, power naps and video breaks to keep me going.

Just hope things would sail smoothly for the next 8 weeks. And may the force be with me.
Wish me luck!